It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here. Not because I didn’t want to, but because I wasn’t really sure of how to write down everything that’s in my head.
It’s been a weird few months. I’ve been through massive highs and some pretty awful lows. All mostly to do with the same thing. If I name specifically what it is then that could cause some problems, so let’s just call it Life.
So Life has been crazy. One minute it’s amazing and I’m over the moon about how everything is going and feel really good about it all. But the next minute, Life throws a tantrum and I wonder what I’m doing here. Why am I putting so much effort into Life when Life is just treating me like nothing? Less than nothing. Life has been straight out cruel and bullying. And unfair.
I think it’s the injustice of Life that gets to me most. I want everyone to be happy and I want everyone to do their part and when the former doesn’t happen because the latter’s not happening then I want to fix it.
But I can’t. Not everything. So I end up feeling helpless.
On the weekend I was watching some drama on TV when a character said something that really resonated with me. They were talking about travelling the world and that the one thing they’ve learnt is you can be unhappy anywhere.
And yeah, they’re right. Some script writer in America has struck a chord and is making me look at a few things differently.
I tend to think of myself as being optimistic… most of the time. Like everyone, I’ll complain about stuff and whinge about the odd thing, but I’ll also bounce around like an idiot over the smallest of things that make me happy.
But overall Life has been making me feel less and less happy. I don’t want to give up on Life because I still love Life. A lot. Parts of Life make me want to be a better person, to try harder and to do amazing things.
So it’s this that I’m going to focus on.
It’s not going to be easy and I know I’ll still complain about something at least once a day – but I think that’s healthy too.
Life is getting me down too much, and even if I escaped this Life and went to another Life, who’s to say that more problems won’t appear?
So here’s to Life and focusing on the good stuff! Whatever your Life problem is, remember that while it’s true you can be unhappy anywhere, then surely you can find happiness anywhere too. So why not right here?
Here’s to happiness.