Week 39

The red glow through eyelids, the warmth spreading across your body… Sunshine can do wonders to your health and mood, but you’ve actually got to get out there to get the benefits, you know.
Yes, sometimes it is easier to just focus on work at your small desk in your small office and not take a break at lunch, even though your brain could do with the rest. But all it takes is a few minutes outside bathed in sunlight – in fact once you’re out there you may hesitate returning to the computer screen again.
Maybe that’s the problem. You know how good sunshine feels across your skin that you fear you’ll abandon all work ethic and run for the hills in bare feet. Really? Do you trust yourself that little, that you can’t enjoy just five minutes in the sun?
Or maybe you trust yourself, but think that in the five minutes you are gone all hell will break loose and there’ll be no one reliable to sort things out while you enjoy a much needed break.
Well, trust is just as important as sunshine, really. You have to trust people to get by, and the more you trust people, the more you’ll be able to relax in whatever you’re doing.
Trust someone to do their job, trust your partner to collect the kids from school, trust the kids to actually go to school.
Just don’t lose yourself too much in the sunshine that you get burnt. It takes a long time to heal.


Week 38

The hallway stretched before him and his hands swam in the open space, before both they and his knees hit the carpet hard.
His back was already beginning to feel bruised from the push when a foot met the same mark, sending legs and arms sprawling and his chin knocked down.
He let out a cry – too much, a clear sign of weakness. As he tried to crawl forward, he felt another blow and toppled forward like a broken doll.
Angry words were being thrown behind him, and again he tried to crawl from it. No matter how far he inched away though, he wouldn’t be leaving home any time soon.

Week 37

It’s easy to blame mistakes on a lack of sleep. But when you’re swimming in the haze of fatigue, it’s no wonder things go wrong.
Confused names, depth perception lost, words muddled up.
And there’s no quick recharge for sleep. A coffee or energy drink only goes so far.
The messed up thing is, you can either lose or gain weight with sleep deprivation. How unfair is that? 50/50 chance of gaining weight while you’re losing your mind. Awesome.
The hallucinations are the worst. I don’t know whether I’ve been day dreaming or whether something has actually happened. Did so-and-so really say such-and-such? I don’t know!
So the only cure is sleep, but there’s no such thing as catching up on sleep. You can’t get back the hours of waking and convert them into dream time. They’re gone. Lost in the folds of time and yesterday.
So here I am. Awake. And making mstiakes.

Week 35

Fourteen steps up, ten steps across, fourteen steps down. The daily commute began and ended with this crossing over the train tracks.
The wait was always different though. Sometimes Megan would have to run across the bridge and hope she didn’t slip and fall before stumbling onto the platform and leaping onto the first carriage. Other times it was a slow and cold wait at the station before the train eventually rolled in.
This morning was going to be the latter, clearly, as there were just a few people waiting when she arrived, meaning she must have just missed a train minutes earlier.
More businessmen and women gathered in the station shortly after Megan took a seat in the glass shelter, along with a few sleepy-eyed students. She was vaguely aware of them but kept her eyes on her cellphone, her headphones in her ears, trying to avoid making eye contact with anyone else. She played no music while she waited, instead the headphones were to dissuade anyone wanting to chat idly about the weather or how busy her day was likely to be.
She shivered as the icy wind whipped around the station which was fast becoming busy with bodies, and empty of transport. Megan was beginning to feel uneasy about the length of the wait, and as she looked up from her phone, she noticed the others waiting were beginning to look concerned and confused about the delay, too.
That quickly turned to panic and clear distress though, as finally coming from the south towards the station was her train. Engulfed in flames. And not slowing down…